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[Saturday, May 27th, 2006] This week went by extremely slow. But oh well its over with. Friday night was a lot of fun. Mike Kelly, Gary, Matt Burns, and Bakes came to my house and hung out for a little, then we went and got sarah and went laser tagggingg and ate mucho food lol. Then we headed over to Ben and Jerrys and ended up walking around the green in branford for a while. Somehow matt and mike ended up chasing me around the entire green to tickle me. GOOD, no. lol it was a lot of fun though. Oh and I'm sick of being confused yet then again it's all my fault. I need to get myself away but it feels so right to stay.

[Friday, May 12th, 2006] [ mood | sick ] Yea so things are complicated in well life...oh wait...its all my fault. WHATEVER. Anywho, this week has kind of sucked only because I've been getting sicker every day. Softball hasn't been too bad. I mean at least I'm playing and doing good where I can, except I really am sick of losing. But yea before the game yesterday at Mercy my eye started to bother me a little and then it started to get swollen. Then it started to bother my other eye and ahhh its so annoying. Whatever though its better now even though I woke up with it being really sore. Oh and I also have no voice. BLAHHHH. I actually wanted to work this Sunday because I would have made so much money off of tips since its Mother's Day. Yea but this weekend hopefully won't be ruined because of my cold. I'm still at school now because I have softball from 4 to 5 in the gym. Then I'm going home and SLEEPING. I can't wait...and the sad part is its Friday night and I'm not even being sarcastic about wanting to sleep.

[Sunday, April 30th, 2006] Prom on Thursday was amazing =). Then Stacey's house after and then the beach in the morning was fun too. Saturday I had a game in East Haven, we lost =(. Then I went to Dana's birthday party at his house. His friends are all really nice and pretty cool. I didn't think anyone would really want me there but we all got along. Anywho, it was fun. I complicate things for myself by being stupid. The end. =(

[Wednesday, April 26th, 2006] Prom is tomorrow!! :). It better make up for all the shit and stress I'm going through with softball and school this week :(.

[Sunday, April 23rd, 2006] [ music | Straylight Run - It's Everyone's Fault But Mine ] I'm stupid. I knew what I had to do yet I didn't do it. Now I have no idea what to do. ...stupidity.

[Saturday, April 15th, 2006] Thursday was pretty amazing. We had a half day at school and then the softball team went to Subway for lunch. Half the team left and went who knows where to eat since Subway was packed and me and Taylor took Cara's car and I drove us across the street to Wendy's because I wasn't in the mood for healthy food lol. Then we went to Walmart and when we came out the other team had silly stringed cara's car (we all went to walmart in her car) it was pretty hilarious I have to admit. Then we went to our game in Cheshire. We ended up losing by 1 run which sucked because it was our first lost. THEN me sarah steph and emily left the game, got subway for dinner, and then went up to Hartford for THE STARTING LINE CONCERT! Ahhhh it was amazing. We made it just in time to see Cartel. They were absolutely amazing except they didn't play Settle Down so me and steph couldn't dance to it lol. Gatsby's American Dream was pretty good too, I had never listened to them before then. Then Hidden In Plain View came on AHHH they are sooo good. I only knew 2 songs by them, 20 Below and Bleed For You but they were both amazing songs =). THENNN THE STARTING LINE! The way they came on was sick nasty lol. They played a good mix of old and new songs thank god since I really didn't want them to just play their new songs. I started out standing on the right side of the stage and somehow me and Steph ended up in the middle. When she left, I moved my way up to stand with my friend Ben because I didn't want to stand alone. I ended up being RIGHT in front =) that was pretty much AMAZING even though it was only for the last about 4 songs. Friday morning me and my family came up to Vermont which is where I am now. We're staying here for Easter at my cousin's. It's been fun so far. Me and my 2 girl cousins and my brother went and saw Ice Age 2. Then me and one of my cousins went out and rented a movie. Today idk whats going on but tomorrow is Easter and it should be fun. I guess 3 of my cousin's friends are coming over for Easter because they are still at College (and she goes to College about 10 minutes away from her house).

[Sunday, April 9th, 2006] This week wasn't so bad. Just went by slow even though a lot went on. Tuesday was the Fashion show. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. I actually had fun with Jenna and Megg so that was cool. I didn't get home until 10:30 though which seemed to be the pattern after that for the rest of the week. Wednesday we had our first softball game. We beat East Haven 9-0 =). Then I had to go to The Hard Truth by MADD for prom. It was pretty extreme I guess you'd say because it almost scared me to not even drive let alone drink and drive. Oh well. Thursday was Junior Ring which was fun. I loved my dress too =). Then I watched the OC seeing as thats the highlight of my week every week. (Because I have that much of a life). Friday I was going to skip my game just so I could make it in time for the party bus for ND prom, but the game got canceled because of rain THANK GOD. So we had practice til 3:15 in the gym so I had time to go to that and then come home and get ready for Prom. Prom was sooo much fun. The partybus ride there was fun too =). It was me, eric, sar, brett, alexa, matt, maco, rick,ashley, danny, and some other couples in the party bus which was mucho fun! Then afterwards we went to Danny's for a little and I fell asleep almost right away I was so tired from the whole week. So then my mom picked me and sarah up at around 2. I had softball practice the next day which sucked because I was still really tired. This week is going to be fun too. Tomorrow Juniors get out at 12:30, then game at Hamden, Wednesday I have a home game against Hand maybe, then Thursday is a half day and a game in Cheshire and THE STARTING LINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE concert which is going to be a-m-a-z-i-n-g because they are my favorite band =).

[Saturday, April 1st, 2006] [ mood | blah ] [ music | The Early November - Sesame, Smeshame ] Well I was looking forward for Friday night to go hang out with some people. Too bad parents ruin everything. They wouldnt let me drive to Milford by myself even though someone would have come out to get me from my car. Whatever. This past week hasn't been that great for so many reasons. Today I had SATs which sucked and took forever. 4 hours of testing blows. Its April Fools Day. This day should burn in hell. NOT just because its a day of pranks. Oh and I had a dream this morning right before I woke up. It was random and weird but the point of me saying this is because it reminded me of someone who made me hate this day. On the way to Chili's after SATs I had to slam on my brakes because the person in front of me did and the guy behind me almost slammed into me, I heard his brakes screetch and then he swirved a little. It was scary and just pissed me off since I have to worst road rage ever lol.

[Wednesday, March 29th, 2006] 29 March has never ever been a good month for me. I really cannot remember one march where something good happened. Not to say anything really bad as happened. Just not a great month. April 1..one of my 2 least favorite days. For so many reasons. Too bad I was reminded this morning of the person who caused this day to be so bad so long ago. Honestly, I see no joy in april fools day, yet it has nothing to do with the fact that its a day of pranks. hmmm my schedule for next week is so hectic Saturday - SATs Sunday - Mother/Daughter Brunch Monday - nothing?/practice Tuesday - practice then sha fashion show Wednesday - first game against East Haven then a prom meeting/talk Thursday - practice/junior ring Friday - game in milford against Law and ND prom I am pretty damn excited for ND prom, I basically am in love with my dress. I'm in love with my dress for SHA prom too. YAY I love prom dresses times a lot lol. Okay I really should go study peace out homies

[Tuesday, March 21st, 2006] Softball started yesterday. It was freezing and I couldn't feel my body. Oh and my hands were about 2 more minutes away from getting frostbite. I had to sit in my car for about 10 minutes thawing them out enough to hold the steering wheel. COOL. no. Today wasnt as bad plus we started later. This year is going to be completely differet, I already miss last year a lot.

[Saturday, March 18th, 2006] Last night was mucho fun =) I saw a ton of people I hadn't seen since freshman year. and a ton others I just hadn't seen in awhile. Basically everyone from Connecticut was at the mall. And matt burns is my biffle haha. Oh and I met some pretty cool people too. Tonight is going to be extremely ...interesting. we'll live it at that for now.

[Friday, March 17th, 2006] Spirit week this year = insane. basically sums it up. oh and I've never worn this much green in my life. lol I have a prom date for SHA prom so I'm now going to both ND and SHA's. Should be really fun. I can see some chaos coming up with planning the limo/tables. Let's hope no drama occurs =/ lol. This weekend should be fun, and hellish because I have a shitload of projects to due that are due monday. I'm glad I never start anything before hand. oh well. Monday softball starts too, im excited because it means spring is coming, but we are gonna actually be working hard this year. Yea, I'm lazy. It should be a lot of fun though =) I love my softball girls =)

[Monday, March 6th, 2006] I know who I want to take to my prom, the big problem with that is I never talk to him. Honestly though, if I wanted my prom to be some "special night with someone I care about" the only person I could ever dream of going with probably hates me. Lifes complicated though, so I'll deal. Oh so this week and next is going to suck because I have so much going on for schoolwork/papers and all that. Blah, well I should probably get started on that.

[Sunday, March 5th, 2006] [ music | Just Surrender - Forgotten Not Forgiven ] Friday // Went to Dana's house for a little and we got some food. On the way there I had to pass by a house up in flames. The firetrucks had just gotten there so the house was still completely engulfed in fire. It was pretty freaky. Then on the way home they blocked off a part of the road so I took a "shortcut" that I used to take going to Amanda's house. Yepp definitely not the right road but it was the only one I could turn down anyways. I finally got back to where I needed to be and headed to Alexa's. Hung out with Sarah Therese Courteney and Alexa and watched part of Wedding Crashers. It was a pretty fun night relaxing with the girls =). Saturday // Me Sarah Eric and Alexa went to see Aquamarine. I kinda wanted to see it anyways but Sarah really did. Lets just say Eric was in hell haha. But it wasnt that bad of a movie, I liked it. Then we went to Ben & Jerrys and all of a sudden I see Galen in the window and ran out and like jumped on him lol. Then Steve Justin Alex and his g/f Tess showed up. That was actually really cool I hadn't see them in so long =). Anywho, so we hung out and then it kind sucked because I had to leave pretty soon after they got there. stupid 11 oclock curfew. Maybe I can get it changed to 11:30 in a couple months =). Today // Went to 11 oclock mass. Later my mom and me have to go out to some store in Hamden because I need to get fitted for the SHA fashion show. COOL. no because I've heard the store doesn't have good clothes whatsoever. And even if they do, I guarantee you it won't be my style. Oh well I'll live. Then later I'm bringing my dress to my neighbor to see if she can fix one thing about the straps and then it'll be perfect =) I LOVE my dress. hehe. Not sure which prom I'm going to wear it to though. Most likely to the SHA prom and I have some idea of who I am going to ask. I'm just going to wait a week or so before I do it.

[Thursday, March 2nd, 2006] [ mood | content ] [ music | The Starting Line - Almost There, Going No Where ] YAY SNOW DAY! I love how our school doesn't have to make up snow days at the end of the year too =) Anywho, I can't wait until May 7 because all my projects, big tests, SATs, SATII's, AP history exam is all over with. Blah (plus summer will be closer). Hmmm, so no date still for SHA prom, obviously I'll ask someone but I'm waiting because I don't know who to ask. I wish someone would just ask me to it haha make my life easier. At least I know I'm definitely going to ND prom which is going to be a lot of fun. It'll be cool too because me and my friend are going (as friends) and thats always more fun. =) The Starting Line, Cartel, Hidden in Plain View and Gatsby's American Dream are playing at the Webster in April...AND IM GOING! Fuck yes, last time I saw TSL in concert they were amazing (oh wait and me and ash met them too! heheh) Cartel is basically amazing too so I'm sooo excited =) (2)

[Friday, February 24th, 2006] [ mood | okay ] [ music | The Starting Line - Surprise, Surprise ] vacation has been pretty fun so far. Sunday // I brought Sarah her pudding and a CD. Then later that night I went out and did basically nothing with a bunch of the guys which was much better than sitting at home doing nothing. Monday // Hung out with Dana during the day played basketball and super nintendo because we have lives lol. Then at night I went to the movies with Carly Sarah and Emily to see Eight Below which is an amazing movie I must say =). Then later me and Sarah went to Friendly's with Matt Burns, Rick, Greg, and some other people. Tuesday // Me Sarah Phil and Jordan hung out. I was going to drive up there but my mom said it was too far for me to drive, idk w/e. So Phil drove them down, Justin didn't come for uhh well no comment. But we still had fun, hung out in Branford, I drove us to the mall and hung out. Oh and I hate when people take things the wrong way thinking something is about them when it has nothing to do with them. Also, I LOVE finding out when people hate me for no reason. Actually wait no it makes me feel about a million times worse than I already did. Anyways, then we came back to my house and watched part of Wedding Crashers and Phil and Jordan somehow won a battle and they put in Saw 2, I HATE THEM because of it. Oh well, I didn't get to finish it but I'll live. Wednesday // Ran some errands with my mom, saw Hanke at cosco! lol. Then came home and Dana came over because we both were bored out of our minds so we just watched some TV and relaxed. I didn't end up doing anything Wednesday night because I had to pack and well I was going to go to bed early but that never happens. Thursday // Went up to MA to visit some colleges. I took a tour of Wheaton which was a nice school, it's what I'm looking for in terms of size and whatnot but I didn't love it or anything. Then we went to Stonehill and I basically had no idea what to expect but i LOVED it. Then me and my parents went into the North End of Boston (aka the Little Italy section) and had dinner at Strega which was really nice and so cool because they had tvs with all different mafia movies playing like the Godfather, Wise Guys and Good Fellas, and other ones. Then we went to Mike's Pastry which I always remember going to when I was little, got some good Italian pastry and cookies =). Even though I like New York better, I still really like Boston for the food aspect lol. Friday // We stayed overnight in the Boston area and then Friday morning we went and visited Tufts which was nice but I didn't like it too much. Then we went to see Boston College, its a lot bigger than what I'm looking for but suprisingly I still really liked it. I liked it better than Tufts actually.

[Sunday, February 19th, 2006] Friday was fun. Stopped by to visit Sarah who just got her wisdom teeth out. Then went to the Puppet House to see First Ave and other good bands. It was fun. I went with Alexa and Matt Burns and then we saw some people there. Talked with Kyle for a little, weird but whatever. Then Dana and Ben stopped by when First Ave came on. Saturday I was going to go to the hockey game but then I decided to do nothing all day/night because I wasn't feeling good. So I layed on the couch and watched the Discovery Channel all night :X I'm a nerd but whatever haha. Anywho, they had cool shows about like the Bermuda Triangle and stuff on it, okay I'm done. Today I feel a lot better so I'm glad I took a lazy day to do nothing. Hopefully something fun will happen today, I'm most likely going to bring Sarah her pudding today too lol. Oh p.s. It doesn't feel like vacation, but starting tomorrow I'm sure it will =)

[Wednesday, February 15th, 2006] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Plain White T's - My Only One ] Some days are good. But most days are bad. Today has been one of those bad days. When do I get to stop hurting? (and missing) :( Vacation is in 2 days. Prolly going to see First Ave and TAT on friday, just have to find people to come with me since Sarah is getting her wisdom teeth out.

[Tuesday, February 14th, 2006] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | HIM - Join Me In Death ] Valentine's Day Not so much that I don't have a valentine or whatever. I just wish I meant something to someone. I miss those days of feeling/knowing someone was there. Whatever, least favorite holiday and so far this week hasnt been that bad but hasnt been good. I'm kinda down/depressed today too which blows. Edit I guess one good thing came out of today. At least I have caring friends. (2)

[Saturday, February 11th, 2006] This is fucking lame. The one time it fucking snows all fucking winter, I planned on going to see Senses Fail. NO BUT NOW I CANT FUCKING GO. Ride or no ride my dad wont let me. FUCK THAT SHIT. I had a ticket to the last fucking show too and complication arose, now I have a ticket, a ride, and people to go with and its gonna be a fucking blizzard tonight. The concert better be fucking postponed or I will kill someone. I'm sick of fucking getting my hopes up on everything; concerts or another else. Whatever, last night almost turned out bad but then Dana called me and then we ended up going to steves. So at least I had one night of fun. Almost thought I was gonna be stuck home. Yea, hockey game today...woo hoo I dont give a shit about it but if i stay home I will break something.

[Wednesday, February 8th, 2006] [ mood | content ] [ music | Trust Company - "Erased" ] Update... Friday // Went to the mall with Sarah, Alexa, Matt Burns, Danny Viggs, and Eric. Dana showed up part way through and chilled for awhile and we saw Steph and her boyfriend. It was overall a fun time. We couldn't decide what to do afterwards and we ended up going to East Haven Bowling Alley and changed our minds and just went to Friendly's lol. It was fun, Sarah almost killed me because I did up to 100 on the highway and then I attempted to cut through the parking lot and cut Eric and Matt off and well, Alexa enjoyed it but Sarah was ready to beat me..haha it was kinda funny. Saturday // Helped out at my mom's preschool's fair thing. I go every year to help out since I went to that preschool. Its funny how different things are now though. To get away for lunch I met up with Dana at Wendy's and then made him come back and help clean up a little. Well, he volunteered too but only because he had nothing better to do. Then we rented Mr. and Mrs. Smith and went back to my house and watched it. Oh, and to explain to people, WE ARE JUST FRIENDS. Blah, no one believes me when I say it but its the truth. lol. Anywho, then at night I went out with Dawn, Mike and Brandon (both her friends). I've met Mike a couple times before, kids hilarious. Brandon I'd never met before, he was a cool kid. We went bowling which was actually fun lol. Sunday // Church. Homework. Superbowl party at the Rubsams. It was all the families so Sarah, Jenna, and Steve were there so it was a good relaxing time with good food =). Oh and sarah friggin won $80 which wasnt fair haha. Monday - Wednesday // Boring. Stressful. Hectic. Frustrating. Tiresome. I can go on, basically I can't wait until Saturday because I'm finally going to see Senses Fail and NOTHING is going to stop me. I am SOOOOOOO flipping excited! lol Okay, long entry and no one even reads these things. Peace out cub scouts =)

[Sunday, January 29th, 2006] This weekend = fun. Friday - Hung out con Dana. Always a good time with a good friend. We saw Underworld Evolution and no I did not get completely scared by the vampires. I was actually proud of myself for watching it lol. Saturday - Went to see Jason at Trinity. I met his one of his friends finally seeing as I know like none of them. We went out to lunch at some Irish Pub type place and then dropped him and his friend back off at their school and me and my mom went to the West Farms Mall. I got a couple things from Pacsun; a cute jean skirt, a light gray tshirt with blue flowers on it, and a purpleish tshirt with some pinkish or something flowers on it. I really don't remember what that one looks like actually haha. Anywho, I saw my cousin who just got married. That was kind of cool because I hadnt seen her or her mom in awhile. (they are like 2nd cousins). Saturday night - Sarah, Carly and Strom came over. I drove us to Ben & Jerry's which is new in the center, yummy ice cream =). Then we went to Strawberries because I had a gift card and felt like getting something so I just bought the Early November CD since I never got it. Then we drove around a little, went down to the point, then stony creek, got random prank calls from people. Fun times lol. Went back to my house and Dana came by and we all watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants =) Strom and Dana of course didn't want to see it but oh well. Haha, it was a fun night. Sunday - did absolutely nothing, kind of a crappy day. I felt pretty down all day and blah and I figured out why about an hour ago but I don't want to explain. I just realized what the days date was thats all. This week better go by fast because I'm really not in the mood to have school. Okay, maybe I'll go to sleep now, ttyl.

laser tagging + friends = <3 [Saturday, January 21st, 2006] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Graham Colton Band - All the World Tonight ] So last night was a lot of fun. A ton of us went laser tagging at the Sportsplex. Then we got something to eat and more people showed up. Then me sarah therese alexa maco matt and dana went to the movies to see Tristan and Isolde. Fun night, movie was okay, not what I expected but I still thought it was decent. Not so much into the whole love stories/movies anymore though. Didn't get home until almost 1 in the morning which was pretty sweet that my parents let me stay out that late without getting mad. Good thing I didnt drive because then I would have had to be home at like 11. But good old dana and matt drove me around =) because they are awesome haha. Anywho, I got to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in so long, that was pretty cool. Yea this past week hasnt been the best but friday night definitely made up for it. I still hate being down and upset most of the time. I'm working on it though. Hopefully I do something else this weekend. I know that tonight I'm going to Sally's Pizza for dinner with my family because my brothers going back to college tomorrow. Then maybe going out after I'm not sure if I'll be able to/if theres anything to do though. AHH I bought my senses fail ticket today =) Me and Emily are going and then I know Ashley is too and I'll be seeing here there =) YES. I've been waiting since September to see them, I'm INCREDIBLY EXCITING you have no idea. I don't think i'll be going to Fall Out Boy though, pretty sure the concerts sold out but I guess its okay because its a friday night during softball so I'd have a game anyways. BAH! I'm so excited for the spring to come, I don't know why but hopefully softball will be fun, school will slowly end and not be as stressful and then summer will be closer! Anywho, I should go find something to do, payce homies =)

[Monday, January 16th, 2006] [ music | The Higher - Pace Yourself ] Okay so I just got really excited because I just saw that Senses Fail is playing Feb. 11th at the Webster and I was supposed to go to the last show they played in CT but things got a little complicated, long story. But I will KILL somebody if I can't go to this show, my mom already said I can as long as other people are going. So whoever wants to come with me I'd friggin pay for your ticket okay!!! haha Anywho, I have softball captain's practice today, I don't really want to go, I forgot about it and then my mom reminded me this morning. Oh well I'll live its just batting cages. Okay so yea, again if I don't go to that senses fail concert, I will hurt someone =) Hehe, oh and I want to go to that Fall Out Boy concert, they are playing with Hawthorne Heights, I hear they arent that great live but I really like them still so what the hell, doubt I'll end up going to that one though, unless someone comes with me but idk I know a lot of people already going to that. (4)

[Sunday, January 15th, 2006] This weekend has been fun so far. Didn't do anything friday night though because I had to go to dinner with my family, Su Casa. Then Saturday I was supposed to coach this softball thing with Dana Gamberdella but it got canceled so I just went to the hockey game instead. Steve drove me there and we picked up KIERNAN!! ahh I hadn't seen her since the summer so that made me pretty happy lol. I used to play softball with her for my summer team. Anywho, the game was pretty boring seeing as Prep scored 5 goals in the first period and ND didn't score any. But then it sort of picked up and ND scored more. They still lost 7 to 5. I hate prep boys though, friggin pricks. So it was fun just seeing everyone and hanging out. I got to see some people I haven't seen in awhile like Dana O., Matt Burns, Kiernan, Kyle Cole, Mike, etc. haha Idk why I'm listing them but yea it was a fun time. Then last night I went to Penang Grill with Therese, Amanda, Christina, and Cynthia, it was fun. It has really good food too =). Then we went up to Ashley's Ice Cream and then back to Therese's. It was a fun night. I got to hang out with Dana and Ben too. Anywho, I'm not sure what is up for the rest of the weekend, its not that great of weather out and I kinda feel like just staying home and relaxing all day. I've been so tired lately even when I get enough sleep =/. But yea, might hang out with someone tomorrow. Could be fun lol. Then Tuesday Jenna's probably gonna pick me up and we're going to go to the ND vs. Branford swim meet at WIS, never been to a swim meet before so it should be fun lol. I mean guys in speedos, nothing could go wrong haha. Alright, time to go relax and maybe start reading Harry Potter :X hehe.

[Wednesday, January 11th, 2006] ( HUGE survey I just took instead of studying for midterms! ) (2)

[Sunday, January 8th, 2006] [ music | Vanity Score - Race the Sun ] do you know what i LOVE? when people lie to my face when i know the truth already but they keep on lying. dont you love that too?!?!?!?! okay so midterm studying is going to be the death of me. good thing i had a fun weekend because this week is going to blow finding out someone likes you and barely knows you is really funny too. then again you cant always believe what people tell you. but oh well. anywho..i also love how i have history homework on new stuff thats going to be on the midterm. COOL. so i better go do that...peace oh yea..i love how it takes me a long ass time to really realize stuff, sometimes being ignorant is better but not in what i dont realize sometimes.

[Saturday, January 7th, 2006] [ music | HIM - Play Dead ] This weekend has been fun =). Friday night me and alexa went out to the ND basketball game and met up with a bunch of people. Afterwards we all went out to Hooters. Fun times. Then I had to study during the day today or my mom wouldn't have let me go out. Went to the movies with my evil twin dawn! lol. Her friends mike, scott, and jesse came too. I've met some of them before so it was cool. HILARIOUS in the movie and not because of the movie haha. After we dropped 2 of them off and me dawn and mike went to wendys and got some food. It was fun, didn't actually spend one dime because mike paid for us since his friend just gave him money =). This week is going to suck, midterms start tuesday. Hopefully it won't be that bad. I might have to miss volleyball thursday though because I got my APUSH exam friday. Oh well, that league is gonna be fun though, me, alexa, tracy, heather, and elise. Anywho, hopefully after exams things will start to die down and be less chaotic. I need to start conditioning or do something for softball though. I can't wait until the spring, I'm sick of the cold weather already and I'm kind of excited for softball this year =).

Goodbye 2005 [Saturday, December 31st, 2005] [ music | Senses Fail - Choke On This ] Okay so I'm not going to talk about every detail about 2005. Honestly, it would just make me depressed. But, this year started out just like any other year, nothing special, but I had hopes it would be a really good year. Wow, I was so right too. First couple months was hectic, school, went out with kyle for a little which turned out bad, the softball incident. Then summer came. Probably THE best summer I've ever had. I can thank one boy for that. I can honestly say I fell in love for the first time in the summer of 05. Then junior year started. HELL. volleyball was fun but a lot of work, schoolwork/homework was hard, but I always had my good times with my friends and boyfriend. I can say I had the happiest times in 05. I can also say I had the lowest times in 05. The softball incident was really hard to handle at first. Not gonna explain it because if you don't know what it is, you don't need to know. And the month of December was probably the worst month I've ever had to endure. I lost a really good thing in this month that I will never get back. My only hope is that some day down the road I can find what I had again. I will miss 2005 everyday I think about it. However, after the month of December, I just want to get as far away from the memories of this year as possible. My hope for 2006, is that I can manage school, friends, and boys without getting overwhelmed and to actually BE happy for the entire year and never have to have such a depressive month as Dec. 05. I'm not going to any crazy party like a lot of people are tonight. I'm hanging out with my closest friends. The ones that have ALWAYS been there for me and I know will ALWAYS be there for me in the future. Through the hard times in my life, I really could pick out my truest friends. I love them all so much and I know that I can really get on their nerves but they still stick by me. So, in 2006, heads up, no looking back on the past, everything happens for a reason, and I'm sure as hell sick of feeling depressed so I'm deciding NOW 2006 will not get to me so badly like now.

December. . . [Monday, December 19th, 2005] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Yule Shoot Your Eye Out - Fall Out Boy ] So basically this entire month has sucked beyond belief for some many different reasons its not even funny. School is such a bitch and seriously every month is harder and harder. I'm so sick of it. Christmas better not be this bad. Or I will cry on Christmas, thats right, on Christmas lol. No but really, this Christmas break better be amazing. I'm sick of feeling like crap every day because the only thing I do is school because teachers give so much damn work. I also hate when people wait forever to tell you something. People need to tell it like it is when it is. Not push stuff off. Then again, I shouldn't talk and sometimes you are just trying to look out for others. But still. Oh well. Anyways, I should really go start my 10 pounds of homework I have to do. Weird thing is..I have so much work this week, and I'm not stressed. I'm in such a "I dont give a shit" mood right now. That'll change soon I'm sure. Ttyl (2)

[Tuesday, December 13th, 2005] Couple of friends entries below Only 12 more days until Christmas!!!!!! I can't wait =) (1)

[Thursday, December 1st, 2005] [ mood | stressed ] I just want time to myself. a day where I can sleep in and relax all day with nothing to worry about. but no even when I have the time to sleep in I feel guilty if I do because I always have so much homework to do. This week has been hell from everything going on and next week is going to be just as bad or worse. I have so much friggin work to do its ridiculous, why do teachers go through times where they give no papers, projects, or hard assignments and then all of a sudden they pile shit up on you. All I need is one day where I can completely relax and not have ANY homework to do. Ugh, that won't happen until next summer though =(. So I don't have time to think about practically anything during the day except what I'm doing or other school work, so I absolutely hate night time when I'm about to go to bed because I'm either extremely stressed because of school and my mind is about to burst from studying or I don't think about school and thats worse because I need to keep busy so I don't think about bad/other things. I just need a break. =(.

[Monday, November 28th, 2005] [ music | Roses Are Red "I Felt I Knew Her" ] Is it bad that I really don't like the month of December? I mean I love Christmas and New Years. But its a month where teachers cram you with papers and big tests and tons of other work because midterms are coming up and they need to get in all their lessons and all that other fun stuff that goes on in December. Plus it starts to really feel like winter and honestly I don't like wintertime that much. I like snow for about a month and then I get sick of it. I really need this week until the month of December to the month of May to disappear. Or maybe I can be like a bear and hybernate all winter. Too cold for me lol. I love summertime; less stress, more fun, sun and warmth! Oh yea, I also hate hearing what expensive shit people get for Christmas. Well, actually no, I love hearing what people get...once... i hate people who brag about what they got CONSTANTLY, its different to be excited about your gifts, its different when people brag, thats just annoying.

Happy Turkey Day! [Thursday, November 24th, 2005] [ mood | happy ] Formal was fun. Don't feel like explaining everything but it was a good time being with everyone. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!! So yea, the Greenbowl is canceled which sucks but its tomorrow at the same time so I might still go to get the full Thanksgiving effect. Bijan came over last night and we had Chinese food with my family and then the 2 of us watched Grind. I hadn't seen it before but I really liked it. Then we watched some tv. I really needed a relaxing night because school and other stuff has been so chaotic. And I love him so much =) He is such a part of my life now and I'm soo happy we're together <3 Alright well I'm gonna go watch the Thanksgiving Day Parade =). AHHHHH I can't believe its Thanksgiving already...that means Christmas is almost here. I CAN'T WAIT for Christmas and New Years. The New Year is a time to start over clean and try and change the things you didn't like about last year so they don't happen again for the new year. I can't wait =)

Formal Tomorrow! [Thursday, November 17th, 2005] [ music | Fall Out Boy "Dead On Arrival" ] YAY SHA Formal is tomorrow night. then back here to partayyy with the girls (and the guys? lol) I'm excited. I'm getting my hair done and I'm scared it's gonna look bad and I wont be able to do anything about it =/ bahh oh well Oh yea this week went by semi fast but it was painful and boring nevertheless. (1)

[Monday, November 14th, 2005] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Graham Colton Band "Morning Light" ] This weekend wasn't too bad. Saw the SHA Musical (The Sound of Music) on Saturday and it was amazing. It makes me REALLY wish I could sing. Oh well. Other than the musical, I hung out with Bijan on Thursday, we went to China Buffet for dinner and then I drove him to my house and we watched the OC and relaxed. Then Friday I went to Trinity to see my brother and we went to the Rainforest Cafe in the West Farms Mall which was pretty sweet =). Friday Night Bijan came over and we watched Lords of Dogtown which was pretty good actually. Lets see Sunday I had a really pointless hitting clinic for SHA softball at Yale. It was really pointless but it was fun to hang out with the softball girls again. I can't wait until spring for softball to start! Today went by pretty fast and hopefully the rest of the week will too. Formal is this Friday!! I'm mucho excited =D. Then idk whats going on Saturday and Sunday I have the Fall Sports Banquet for Volleyball. Next Thursday is Thanksgiving!!! I'm soo excited but I really CANT believe its the middle of November already, the school year has gone by fast so far. Not complaining though, faster the school year goes by, the faster summer comes =). Hmmm...I need money for Christmas presents. Well, I have the money but I owe my brother a LOT for my parents' anniversary present that I never paid him back for. Hopefully I'll have enough money to buy presents and hopefully I can find time to work a little more for my Uncle's company and make some moola!

[Wednesday, November 9th, 2005] Friends Only Entry (underneath this one)

[Saturday, November 5th, 2005] [ music | The Starting Line - A Goodnight's Sleep ] I got my haircut yesterday and I don't know if I like it. Well I do, but I don't like how short he cut my side bangs. I told him shorter than last time and I pointed to where and he cut a lot shorter than that. I think it looks really bad =/ but oh well I'll live until they grow out a little more (HOPEFULLY BY FORMAL!) Blah, its all good I got it cut shorter and angled and layered. I think it looks good besides the bangs part. Last night was a lot of fun. Me and Bijan went out to dinner to Yuki Yama (spelling?). It's a Japanese restaurant and it is SOOO good. I could eat the place out. Hehe. Then we came back to my house and hung out and watch like 5 episodes of Law and Order CVU and CI. I love those shows =) (2)

[Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005] [ mood | content ] [ music | My American Heart - Maps Around Texas ] Monday // - Halloween was fun. We all went to Sarah's and yes we went trick or treating. I will go every year until I have kids because I LOVE halloween (mostly just the whole free candy thing). Sarah and Court were Daisy Dukes and Me Carly Jenna and Alexa were 80s girls. The boys werent really anything lol. It was a fun time =D. Tuesday // Sucked that I had school because I was exhausted. The friggin seniors and sophomores had the day off because they reached their goal for the ad campaign so it was only juniors and freshman at school. Blah, the day went by pretty fast though. Today // Noon dismissal. I love getting out early =D. Then me and my dad went to the China Garden Buffet to get lunch. I <33333333333333 chinese food! Then we got report cards. I'm happy with mine! I felt like I worked harder than any other quarter (in high school) this quarter, idk why but it did. Oh well, hopefully I'll be on top of things again this coming quarter like last (only less stressed :/) Tomorrow shouldn't be that bad and then Friday. First Friday without having volleyball and I can go straight home after school! ah I'm excited lol. Me and Bijan are going out to dinner and then hanging out so I'm excited for that too. <3 Oh yea, the OC finally is starting back up tomorrow night. WOOT! It's the one show I ever watch and the World Series had to be on that station so I couldn't see it for a couple weeks. Lol, I'm obsessed =/. Alright I'm outa here. Ttyl.

[Sunday, October 30th, 2005] Yesterday was sooooo much fun! me, Carly, Alexa, Emily went to the mall to go dress shopping for formal! I got 2 dresses. One for formal and one for capers because yes I'm going because It's gonna be fun lol. Okay so my formal dress is really pretty, its a red halter top, with silkish strips going diagonally across it and its knee length. I got a pretty butterfly silver necklace to go with it and silver earings. I still need to find shoes though. My second dress is torquoise and it halter with this design strip going across the top and idk how the heck to describe it. Of course there is a little stain on my red dress so my mom is going to try to get it out and it that doesnt work I'll either 1. buy another dress with my own money or 2. wear the torqouise one to formal instead. Emily and Carly's dresses are soooo pretty too. Then after the mall I was supposed to go to Sarah's house to hang out with her and Court and when I got there, well they had thrown a surprise party for me!! hehe. it was a lot of fun. Yesterday was me and Bijan's 4 month too and he had given me the excuse that he had to go out to dinner with his family so we couldn't do anything so when I got there I didn't see him and court told me he had to go to dinner with his parents and I was like on the verge of tears (haha I'm pathetic but everyone else noticed it too) and so court and sarah brought me down to the basement to show me how they set it up...stupid me fell for it and really thought they were showing me decorations and Bijan was there!! hehe last night was amazing and i love my friends to death! Oh yea and Alexa is amazing because she got me a beanie and matching gloves that I had tried on and really liked in Charlotte Russe. Too bad all day em, car, and alexa were talking about last night behind my back and i never noticed. lol good times =D Oh yea, I also got 3 shirts from pacsun. A long sleeve pink one and a brown one (with a pretty design on it) and a short sleeve brown BAM one. I still need some more fall/winter clothes though. and sneakers since mine are breaking. alright time for homework. ttyl (3)

[Sunday, October 23rd, 2005] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Anberlin - Never Take Friendship Personal ] I don't have the time to update but I still am.. This week is going to be extremely hectic. Last week of volleyball which in some ways I'm excited about because I love being able to go home right after school. But I'm going to miss playing because it's so much fun. I also have a bunch of tests and a term paper due this week. I hate how teachers cram everything in the last week of the marking period. Oh well, I can't believe its the end of October already. Hopefully the rest of the year goes by fast because I can't wait until Christmas break and New Years. I need summer too. But yea, APUSH is going to be the death of me. It is such a boring class because when is history ever fun. Plus up until about April its going to be hell preparing for the AP Exam. I can't wait until after that because my teacher said its all downhill and easier from there. This weekend was good though. I saw Bijan a lot. I hate not being able to see him during the week. Sometimes I really want to just transfer to Branford so I wouldn't be so stressed AND I'd get to see him all the time =). But I'm stuck at SHA. Oh well, I love my friends there. Friday night we lost our game to Hand, nothing new in losing but I got to play a lot more than i usually do. I got a couple good kills too, which made me happy because I wanted to prove to the coach I can do it. So yea, that was cool. Next weekend should be fun. Senior Night friday night and then dress shopping for formal Saturday or Sunday with Carly and Emily. Should be a good time, I love trying on new dresses and finding the right one. =) Hmm, so I'm spending about $250 on my parents 25th anniversary present and I have to pay for at least half of everything for formal and my dress. So pretty much I'm broke. It sucks, I worked a lot at the end of summer and the beginning of the school year so that I could have spending money, gas money, and I need fall clothes. I don't have time for a real job either. I work at Bill Miller's on weekends but during the winter there isn't as many jobs because there aren't too many weddings then. I talked with my parents about getting a job and they said I can't. Sounds weird I know but they want me to just take a break from everything and focus on my school work so I'm not as stressed since I get stressed out extremely easily =/... like now, haha I just wasted time writing this entry when I could have been starting my APUSH term paper. Blah, I need to stop being such a procrastinator. Oh well, paper time =/

[Wednesday, October 12th, 2005] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Senses Fail - Buried A Lie ] I am sick of school. I work my ass off and never have time to fucking relax, whats the point of it? So I can go to more school to than get a job and work for the rest of my life. When the fuck can I just relax and NOT have to worry about school. Oh yea so I can't wait until November, volleyball will be done and I can go home right after school. Seeing as I never play anymore and when I do MY ARM IS FUCKING COLD AS ICE SO I CANT SERVE! yea its cool WATCHING every game lately. I shouldn't complain like its only me, a lot of girls aren't playing as much as they should. Whatever though I still will work my ass off even though he never notices. Yea, this past weekend was good, spent a lot of time with Bijan which was awesome =D. This weekend is going to suck though, I have a game in Cheshire on Friday and then I have work 4-11ish Saturday. Hopefully I'm working a wedding though so I can get extra tips. I need money like woah, I worked so much and now I spent it all on gifts for people. I have none for myself =/. Today was PSATs. They sucked just like any kind of test like that. At least it made the day go by faster. Then I was supposed to have religion but she just gave us a free period so I got a good amount of homework done. Then I had study last period so pretty much I had no school today. I had 160 minutes of study. Too bad I worked the entire time and still have more. WHAT THE FUCK. Yea sometimes I REALLY wish i went to Branford but I'll never transfer because all my friends are at SHA now and I can't leave half way through high school. Yea I have to go do a paper for Gym (yea gym homework, stupid I know but I go to SHA...enough said) and do my APUSH (I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF OUTLINING!!!!!!!!) (2)

[Saturday, October 1st, 2005] Yea, so school's been a bitch. This month hasn't been the greatest overall because of that and other things. But we finally won our first game in volleyball yesterday (vs Hamden) whatever lol. APUSH is a bitch because it takes up so much time i barely have time for other homework =/. I can't wait until christmas break because my plan is to do all my homework the first day off and then have NOTHING to do the rest so i can take a break. Blah the first month of school is finally over (too bad it felt like 5 months went by with all the week I've gotten). I went to the ND football game last night vs. West Haven. Got to see a lot of people I haven't seen since summer. It was pretty awesome even though ND lost =/. After the game, Bijan and I went to Friendly's since I hadn't had any dinner. That was fun, talked and eat and relaxed. Today/Tonight and tomorrow I have a ridiculous amount of homework. Next week on ONE day, I have 2 tests (of my 2 hardest classes) a quiz and a paper due (thats completely in Spanish)..too bad I only have 3 classes (and gym) that day. Then I have various other papers and tests due in the beginning of that week. So, today and tomorrow I will be doing homework like there's no tomorrow. And sleeping at my grandparents house which kind of sucks but I'll be doing my homework there too so it doesn't matter. Okay, time to go start my homework. (2)

[Wednesday, September 14th, 2005] yesterday was my birthday!! i'm 17! finally lol. well i wake up in the morning to a message on my phone from bijan =) who called at 12 even though i was sleeping. hehe and then i get to school and my locker is decorated by the lovely carly byrnes!! and then later by sarah and courteney. then i have school and practice and come home and bijan came over =) he gave me the season 2 of the OC =) and tickets to see senses fail =D. also he wrote me a poem/song which is amazing and i love it alright well time to do homework. =(

[Saturday, September 10th, 2005] junior year = hell...already. APUSH outlining 20 pages a night sucks and its just gonna get harder with papers, tests, quizes, etc. starting Anatomy & Physiology is gonna be somewhat fun though. i cant wait until january when we go on our field trip to the Yale Medical School. We get to see a disected human =) ahh its going to be so weird and freaky at first i know but it will be so awesome to see what we look like on the inside (wow im a dweeb) but yea, english alegbra and religion arent bad at all..really awesome and nice teachers. english class is gonna be a lot of fun with cincotta. spanish shouldnt be hard, same teacher as last year so i understand her teaching style and stuff already. and then i have gym which is stupid but oh well after this i'll never have to take it again. Volleyball is going to be so much fun this year. we had a jamboree last night at Morgan in Clinton. it was a lot of fun and we did really good. we have an extremely hard schedule this year so who knows how we'll do during the season. playing branford on the 19th at branford so um go! lol TUESDAY (the 13TH) IS MY BIRTHDAY!! woot. i canNOT believe i am 17. probably because i feel and act about 12 still lol (and i dont look 17 either). But yea i'm excited because i love my birthday. not to sound selfish but i love getting presents. honestly, who doesnt? lol but i never ask for anything because i dont want people spending money on me and i never know what i want anyways. but yea. i think bijan is going to come over tuesday after my practice so i can see him on my birthday =). i miss him, i never get to see him because of school now. just on the weekends. i still love him though =) hehe. last night i went to alexa's house with court carly and emily and we slept there and had some good times =). but now i have to shower, do homework like wow, and then go to work =(. peace out lol

[Thursday, August 25th, 2005] school starts in friggin less than a week. this blows so hard its not even funny. :( i dont want to go back. but yea, alexa's party the other day was a lot of fun. saw a lot of people i hadnt seen all summer. which was awesome. then yesterday my family went to misquamicat together. it was nice until it got cold out since clouds came. so we went and got some ice cream and i also got cotton candy!!! hehe the guy gave me sooo much of it. and i ate it all because im a little girl at heart and love stuff like that, except then i felt the need to hurl because i had so much. haha it was all good though =). then we went into Watch Hill and me and my mom shopped for awhile. saw a cute bathing suit but my mom wouldnt let me get it because it didnt fit perfect enough for how much it was. oh well whatever i have plenty i don't even wear. then we just hung out and sat by the water. me and my brother took random pictures because we are cool like that. then we had dinner, it was good. then we watch the sunset, awww how cute i know lol. after that we got a tonnnnn of candy at the candy store. which reminds me i really want to finish my candy even though its 10:30 in the morning lol. alright well im out. (1)

[Sunday, August 21st, 2005] tonight was friggin awesome =). nicole's suprise party. we all went out to some random dock place the boys always take their boats out to and went swimming. well i didnt want to go in but mario picked me up and jumped in with me. then he did that 2 more times after i had just struggled to get back onto the dock. lol oh well its all good. it was fun but i was FREEZING afterwards since it wasnt that warm out today. then we all went back and pretty much danced all night on the beach with the girls and others and bijan <3. it was soo awesome. saw a lot of people i hadnt seen or hung out with in a long time. times like tonight makes me REALLY really wish i lived right on the water. i mean i have a pool but its not the same AT ALL and i barely use it anymore because i'd always rather go to someone else's house then have people come to mine. tomorrow a bunch of us are all going up to 6 flags. its gonna be so much fun. then later in the week is alexa's party. and some other stuff is going on. my family might go to a yankee game thursday and then go to little italy for dinner (YESSSS i love italian food..hehe and i love being italian). but yea, summer is practically over and yet i have so much going on this week. i go back a week from monday. thats so depressing. oh well, im excited for things that happen during the school year like football games, hockey games, formals/proms, volleyball and softball and all that other good stuff (pretty much anything that DOESNT involve school/work but oh well. junior year is gonna blow too. everyone always says its the hardest year. i hate that but oh well i'll live. (6)

[Wednesday, August 10th, 2005] [ mood | drained ] Day 1 of volleyball camp = hell but no soreness Day 2 of volleyball camp = HELL AND I COULD BARELY MOVE FROM SORENESS but then bijan came over that night and it was all good and i got to relax and hang out with him :D Day 3 of volleyball camp = LIMBO (not so much hell and NOT heaven lol) and less soreness camp is hard because the coaches make you do jump lines like crazy and crazy shit but at the same time im so glad i went or i'd be extremely out of shape for the season. and its been fun hanging out with my volleyball girls again :D. tonight my brother is having a bunch of friends over and kiernan is gonna be there! woot! lol. then kristen paralise might come too. (SHE BETTER! lol). alright time to take a much needed shower to soothe my muscles and well i smell lets put it that way lol. then off to clean my room =/. (2)

[Friday, August 5th, 2005] Hola. So I've been back from Ohio for a week now but havent really felt like updating. Ohio was a lot of fun hanging out with my softball girls and actually winning for a change (but then losing a lot too in the end =/ oh well). SOO glad I'm back and can enjoy the rest of my summer. Been hanging out with Bijan a lot this week and i love it =) and him =D. I'm dreading school starting because then I won't be able to see him as much. We'll manage though =). Hmm...this summer has been awesome except i was thinking about it and i havent really seen many people im friends with outside of Branford. hopefully before school starts i'll be able to hang out with everyone! Starting Monday I have a volleyball camp at my school to go to. It's not gonna be that bad I dont think. its from 6-8 on 3 of the days and on the other 2 its from 8-4:30 and then 8-11:30 so really its not bad. Alright well hopefully this last month or less of summer will be awesome =). PEACE! haha i need a life (1)

[Saturday, July 23rd, 2005] Going to Ohio today. be back sometime next week on thursday or friday. Bijan <3 ttyl - xo, Christina

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